Kat

18 September 2008 @ 12:43 am

My Name is Katharyn Victoria Vela

Did you know simple hellos make my day? I bet you didn't. I bet you don't know the life I've lived and am living hasn't exactly been a nice walk in the park either, but I think it's safe to say no one's life really is ever that simple and easy. We all have our own problems, situations, and battles we have to go and get through. Whether it's as small as being late to biology class or as serious as being diagnosed with cancer. It's still important, it still matters. I believe thats what lifes all about really, it's about teaching us something we'll be thankful for later down the line. Teaching us everything it can get through to us. The lessons we endure don't just happen out of random chance, in my opinon. I feel they happen at exactly the right moment we need them to. Whether or not you have the courage to admit that. Take for instance the lesson of being forgotton by someone you care about, it was during that time of such earth shattering rejection that I learned how vitally important it was to remember things. And not just the things you feel are essential , but remembering everything you possibly can. I don't know about everyone else in the world, but when I know I've lived my life to the absolute fullest and am ready to look back on it, I want to see some pretty incredible illustrations. Out of all the lessons I've learned so far, I've become most thankful for the ones that nearly threw me off the edge. It was during those god awful times, I finally realized how strong my heart is and how wise my mind can be. When you hit rock bottom, the only way you got left to go is back up. When I hear the word hero, I still get that same old image of Superman flying in to save the day. It would be pretty amazing if he really did exsist right? One horrified scream and bam! There he is, rescuing you from all your fears and terrors. But deep down we all know hes just some made up character in some made up world.
Nope, you're wrong, he is real. Maybe he isn't in the form we're all used to seeing him in, but hes there. All you have to do is look around you, because inside of every living human lives an even stronger hero. Each and everyone of us have something of Superman quality. it may be his striking good looks, brain, wisdom or strength. We all have at least one thing he has, some we're lucky enough to be blessed with even more. That's not really the point though. The real proof of his exsistence is that we're all fighting for something, just like him. We all have at least one thing in this world that gets us motivated to get out of bed every single morning. Whether or not it's healthy or destructive. No matter what anyone ever tells you, somewhere out in this mess of a world someone is fighting for you.That's how people survive for so long nowadays, it's because we stay alive for each other. So when push comes to shove, Superman really isn't the real hero here, we are. So in other words, my heroes don't consist of people wearing spandex and flying around in vibrant capes. They don't save anyone from burning houses or collapsing buildings. To be completely honest, none of that stuff matters to me, and absolutley none of it ever will.
My heroes are the people who have the strength and courage to get up in the morning everyday and fight with everything inside them for what the want in their life. No matter how impossible their dreams may seem, if they have the strength to never ever give up on it, than that is a true superhero to me.
Please don't tell me I've changed, because in reality I haven't. I haven't changed since I was a baby. Obviously I'm not the same, but all I've done is grown into the person I'm supposed to be. I grow a little every single day. We all do. At the end of the day, we're all still the same person we were when we first began breathing. We've just gotten a bit more mature over time. That's all. My friends are probably the strangest people you will ever meet on this planet, but that's what I love about them. Life's always better strange, that way you never get bored. My best friend is a weirdo, but a weirdo who changed my life. I'm fascinated by everything in this universe and when I say everything, I mean everything. More than likely anything you say to me, no matter how irrelevant the subject is, it will end up entertaining me for awhile. The reason I need hugs so much, is that it makes me feel important.That for one moment, I am the one in your arms. And no one else can come between. I want to see the whole wide world when I'm a all grown up. Life's to short to stay in one area for to long. We only have one life to live and I do not want to look at corn fields for the rest of my life. My goal isn't to be just another face in a crowd. That's not the kind of life for me. I was born to tell a story, and a darn good one at that. Writing is my form of artwork. When I write something, I don't write it just to write it. There is a logical reason for it. Every single word I type or write on a page is something i'm not ready to say out loud yet. So I suggest when reading my work you really listen to whats being said. All those words on that paper. That's me talking to you. I feel its important to be kind to people. Treat them the same way you wish to be treated. Cause when we bleed, we're all bleeding the same blood. It's not right if i try to take away someone elses happyness or try and take away there hope. Those things may be the only thing they've got. Truth is, I'm just a quiet girl with a heck of a lot to say. Give me a pen and some paper and I promise you I'll keep you fascinated for days.

My Name Is Katharyn Victoria Vela
And this,
This is my life.

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13 September 2008 @ 11:24 pm

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My name is Katharyn Victoria Vela.

The life I've lived and am living hasn't exactly been a nice walk in the park, but I think it's safe to say no one's life really is ever that simple and easy. We all have our own problems, situations, and battles we have to go and get through. Whether it's as small as being late to biology class or as serious as being diagnosed with cancer. It's still important, it still matters. I believe thats what lifes all about really, it's about teaching us something we'll be thankful for later down the line. Teaching us everything it can get through to us. The lessons we endure don't just happen out of random chance, in my opinon. I feel they happen at exactly the right moment we need them to. Whether or not you have the courage to admit that. Take for instance the lesson of being forgotton by someone you care about, it was during that time of such earth shattering rejection that I learned how vitally important it was to remember things. And not just the things you feel are essential , but remembering everything you possibly can. I don't know about everyone else in the whole wide world, but when I know I've lived my life to the absolute fullest and am ready to look back on it, I want to see some pretty incredible illusrtations. Out of all the lessons I've learned so far, I've become most thankful for the ones that hurt me like no other. It was during those god awful times, I finally realized how strong my heart is and how wise my mind can be. My heroes don't consist of people wearing spandex and flying around in vibrent capes. They don't save anyone from burning houses or collapsing buildings. None of that stuff matters to me, and absolutley none of it ever will. My heroes are the people who have the strength and courage to get up in the morning everyday and fight with everything inside them for what the want in their life. No matter how impossible their dreams may seem, if they have the strength to never ever give up on it, than that is a true superhero to me. My friends are probably the strangest people you will ever meet in this world. My bestfriend? Well, he's a weirdo, but a weirdo who changed me life. I'm fascinated by everything in this world and when I say everything, I mean everything. That means more than likely anything you say to me, no matter what the subject is, will end up entertaining me for awhile. I want to see the whole wide world when I'm a all grown up, We only have one life to live and I do not want to look at corn fields for the rest of my life. My goal in life isn't to be just another face in a crowd. I was born to tell a story, and a darn good one at that. I love to write, if you can't already tell. So go ahead, add me to your own personal story. Make me the villan or the heroine. Write me a chapter or sentance. Truth is, I'm just a quiet girl with a lot to say. Give me a pen and some paper and I promise you I'll keep you fascinated for days.
=]

My name is Katharyn Victoria Vela.
and this.
This is my life.

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11 September 2008 @ 04:26 am

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The freshwater biome
Freshwater is defined as having a low salt concentration — usually less than 1%. Plants and animals in freshwater regions are adjusted to the low salt content and would not be able to survive in areas of high salt concentration (i.e., ocean). There are different types of freshwater regions:

    * Ponds and lakes
    * Streams and rivers
    * Wetlands

Ponds and lakes
These regions range in size from just a few square meters to thousands of square kilometers. Scattered throughout the earth, several are remnants from the Pleistocene glaciation. Many ponds are seasonal, lasting just a couple of months (such as sessile pools) while lakes may exist for hundreds of years or more. Ponds and lakes may have limited species diversity since they are often isolated from one another and from other water sources like rivers and oceans.
Wetlands
Wetlands are areas of standing water that support aquatic plants. Marshes, swamps, and bogs are all considered wetlands. Plant species adapted to the very moist and humid conditions are called hydrophytes. These include pond lilies, cattails, sedges, tamarack, and black spruce. Marsh flora also include such species as cypress and gum. Wetlands have the highest species diversity of all ecosystems. Many species of amphibians, reptiles, birds (such as ducks and waders), and furbearers can be found in the wetlands. Wetlands are not considered freshwater ecosystems as there are some, such as salt marshes, that have high salt concentrations — these support different species of animals, such as shrimp, shellfish, and various grasses.
Streams and rivers
These are bodies of flowing water moving in one direction. Streams and rivers can be found everywhere — they get their starts at headwaters, which may be springs, snowmelt or even lakes, and then travel all the way to their mouths, usually another water channel or the ocean. The characteristics of a river or stream change during the journey from the source to the mouth. The temperature is cooler at the source than it is at the mouth. The water is also clearer, has higher oxygen levels, and freshwater fish such as trout and heterotrophs can be found there. Towards the middle part of the stream/river, the width increases, as does species diversity — numerous aquatic green plants and algae can be found. Toward the mouth of the river/stream, the water becomes murky from all the sediments that it has picked up upstream, decreasing the amount of light that can penetrate through the water. Since there is less light, there is less diversity of flora, and because of the lower oxygen levels, fish that require less oxygen, such as catfish and carp, can be found.

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11 September 2008 @ 04:10 am

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The marine biome
Marine regions cover about three-fourths of the Earth's surface and include oceans, coral reefs, and estuaries. Marine algae supply much of the world's oxygen supply and take in a huge amount of atmospheric carbon dioxide. Oceans represent the largest and most diverse of the ecosystems.

Animals:
There are hundreds of different type of animals that live in the ocean, but a few would be: whales, dolphins, sharks, seals, walrus, star fish, eel, crabs, jelly fish, and fresh and salt water fish,

Plants:
Seaweed, Laminderia, and Kelp.

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10 September 2008 @ 05:27 am

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The tundra biome
Tundra is the coldest of all the biomes. Tundra comes from the Finnish word tunturi, meaning treeless plain. It is noted for its frost-molded landscapes, extremely low temperatures, little precipitation, poor nutrients, and short growing seasons.

Characteristics of tundra include:

   1. Extremely cold climate
   2. Low biotic diversity
   3. Simple vegetation structure
   4. Limitation of drainage
   5. Short season of growth and reproduction
   6. Energy and nutrients in the form of dead organic material
   7. Large population oscillations

Arctic tundra
Arctic tundra is located in the northern hemisphere, encircling the north pole and extending south to the coniferous forests of the taiga. The arctic is known for its cold, desert-like conditions.

Temperature
The average temperature in the winter is -34° C and the average temperature in the summer is 3-12° C.

Rainfall
Yearly precipitation, including melting snow, is 15 to 25 cm a year.

Plants
There are about 1,700 kinds of plants in the arctic and subarctic, and these include:
   * low shrubs, sedges, reindeer mosses, liverworts, and grasses

Animals
There are many animals that live in the Tundra Biome. A few would be lemmings, voles, caribou, arctic hares, squirrels, arctic foxes, wolves, and polar bears

Location
The location would be very cold. Like Alaska, Canada, and Mountanious areas

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10 September 2008 @ 05:25 am

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intertidal zone
The intertidal zone is where the ocean meets the land, sometimes it is submerged and at other times exposed, as waves and tides come in and out. Because of this, the communities are constantly changing.

Animals
Usually only small animals live in the Intertidal Zone, like herbivorous snails, crabs, sea stars, and small fishes.
Plants
Algae and seaweed are usually the only plants.

Location
Intertidal Zones are basically all over the world. Where there is a shore line, there is probably an intertidal zone.

Estuaries
Estuaries are areas where freshwater streams or rivers merge with the ocean. The largest Estuary in the United States is the the Chesapeake Bay estuary.

Plants
Estuaries have plants such as seaweeds, marsh grasses, and mangrove trees (only in the tropics)

Animals
They have a variety of worms, oysters, crabs, and waterfowl.

Location
Estuaries are found on the coast where fresh water like a river or a bay has access to the ocean. Another example is when a river feeds directly into the ocean.

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01 September 2008 @ 11:55 pm

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Someone asked me a question today that really made me think.

It was: "In your terms what do you consider a best friend to be like?''

Just a simple question, right?

Wrong.

It wasn't that simple for me.

In fact it was one of the hardest questions I've ever been asked to answer.in all honesty.

It was because I never thought of it before I was asked. To me, determing who was a best friend and who wasn't was just one of those things my heart just knew and did by itself.
It never really ever came to my mind.
So it was strange.
For me to actually put into words what my heart knew.

But I did eventually answer it.

In my heart, a best friend should be someone who makes you feel like you belong somewhere.
They should make you feel like you are a somebody.
That you do have a purpose.
When the world seems to have turned its back on you, and you feel like you're all on your own.
A best friend shouldn't be one of the people who turn their backs on you.
They shouldn't just ignore you when you're really sad or depressed.
Or If you've found yourself in some bad drama.
oh no.
That's not a best friend.
If someone does that to me, I don't even consider them my friend.
A best friend should be the person hugging you, and telling you everything is going to be okay.
Or at least attempting to help make you feel better.
Just by the sound of their voice, you should know, that no matter what happens, they are always, going to care about you.
You can trust them, with out any doubts.
and they should be able to trust you.
They should say Hi to you in the hallway.
A small thing. But an important thing,
It shows you mean something to them.
Come on.
Do you really think someone who you don't mean anything to would bother trying to speak to you in a tiny hallway filled with a huge mob of people coming every direction?
I think not.
They should listen to what you have to say.
and REALLY listen.
No matter how important or irrelevant the something is you need to say.
Even when you two do something to make eachother unhappy.
It'll go away,
Because a best friend shouldn't do something so hurtful to you, that you never want to forgive them.
The same goes for you.
I believe you should feel safe around a best friend.
Like nothing can really hurt you.
or ruin the moment you're having with them.
It's not important that you see them everyday.
Even talk to them everyday.
What is important though, is when you do talk to them or when you do see them, you feel happy. You feel grateful for having them as a best friend.
They don't care about what you look like.
What you're reputation is or has been like.
Even if you've done something really pointless or mean.
They'll find a way to reason with it.
and carry out the day like nothing happened.
A best friend won't ever judge you.
No matter what the situation is, they'll stand beside you.
even if its just you and them.
All in all. A best friend to me, is someone who honestly cares about, who trusts you,will stand by you, and will be there when you need them the most.

Thats what I think a best friend is.

I can talk to anyone.
I can go to the park or movies with anyone.
I can gossip with anyone.
have inside jokes with anyone.
laugh with anyone
cry with anyone.

Don't get me wrong.
I have the most amazing friends out there.
I love and care for them so much.
and don't ever doubt that about me.
But most of them don't know me inside and out.
They might think they do.
But trust me, I'm more complicated then I seem.
I mean yeah. I tell them things.
But I don't really open all the way up to them
I don't open up to anyone easily anymore.
I used to.
But that was a huge mistake.
A painful one too.
and I NEVER want to feel that much pain again.
never ever ever.
But In the end I did learn an important lesson.
and became wiser from it.
Just like everyone else.
I've lost close friends.
Sometimes they left me behind.
Sometimes I left them behind.
It's something in life we all have to go through.
We all have to do whats best for us.
No matter how painful it is.
I have a strong loving heart.
Even though It's been through so much devestation and heartache.
It still continues to beat.
it still continues to love.
and It will always continue to love.
You can bet on that.
I'll be honest with you, thats my weakness.
That I care, that I love.
That I care and love other people more than I care and love about myself.
In a world where hardly anyone cares about anything anymore.
But I'm happy with that.
That I care.
That I love.
Because through all the shit i had to endure from people who lied and said they ''cared'' about me.
Who walked all over me.
I met people who do actually care.
and that to me, is worth all the pain.
That to me is worth everything.

But everything I said up there.
I can't just do with anyone.
You have to be a very special person to me if I am willing to open my self up to you.
Because that means I wholeheartedly trust you, with out any doubts.
So If i say to you, you're my best friend.
Don't think I'm kidding.
or saying it just to say it.
I'm saying it to you because you are.
and thats a huge compliment.
Cause it means you're a top priority in my life.
and a hero to me.
You may not have an awsome super power.
But you've saved me.
and my heart.
You save me everyday of my life.
and that to me is more important then being able to fly.

So thank you.
To all my best friends.
To my hero and heroines.
You'll never realize how much you've impacted my life.
You guys, basically are my life.
and I love everyone of you with my entire heart.

And Thank you.
Thank you to everyone who loves me, cares for me, hurt me, lied to me.
Talk to me.
Thank you for anyone who ever affected me in anyway.
whether it was good or bad.
You all taught me something.
And I am so grateful for that.
You also helped me become me.
So thank you from the bottom of my heart.
You'll never know how grateful I am for that.

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06 July 2008 @ 07:54 am

Survey's Part Two.

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06 July 2008 @ 07:51 am

All you need is love ♥

Keeping track of all the survey's I do.

[[1]]

0) When you think about your first kiss, what does it remind you of? I haven't had one yet.
1) who are your last 3 texts from? i'm to lazy to look.
2) Where was your default pic taken? outside.
3) What's your middle name? Victoria.
4) Your current relationship status? single.
5) Does the person you like, like you back? nope.
6) What is your current mood? tired.
7) What is your mom's name? Delilah
8) What color shirt are you wearing? green.
9) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Never kissed..
10) If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be? Nothing. This is the way it is supposed to be.
11) Have a crazy side? yes.
12) Ever had a near death experience? no
13) What is something you do a lot? sleep. write, read, talk, eat.
14) Angry at anyone? kind of.
15) Do you wanna see somebody right now? yes.
16) Do you like drama? i try to stay out of it.
17) When was the last time you cried? today.
18) Who would you do anything for? My mom, Coleman..
19) Who is your hero? My momma, god, my friends. :)
20) What is the one thing you notice about the opposite sex first? height and face.
21) At what time do your friends call you? they never call me.
22) What's your biggest secret? Why would I put it up here?.
23) Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? yes.
24) What are you eating or drinking at the moment? water.
25) Last time you went to the movies? When Get Smart came out.
26) Have you ever kissed in the rain? No
27) Do you like the rain? yes.
28) What are you thinking about right now? Why Coleman never responded to my email. .
29) What should you be doing right now? not worrying..
30) What is your favorite memory? Coleman hugging me..
31) What are you listening to? Save Me - Remy Zerol.
32) Who was the last person who said i love you to you? my mom
33) Who was the last person you yelled at? i don't remember.
34) Do you act differently around the person you like? no.
35) What is your natural hair color? Light Brown.
36) Do you like yourself? Nope
37) What was the last restaurant you were at? Don Raphael.
38) When was the last time you were drunk? never been drunk.

[[2]]
Do you like the person you are becoming?
I'd like to think so..

Has anyone called you perfect before?
Haah. Nope.

Does it annoy you to see trashy ###### get all the guys?
hmm. sometimes.

What song is stuck in your head?

Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be?
Hm.

Wanna have kids before you're 30?
yes. But I don't want kids to early.

Do you look more like your mom or dad?
Neither. People say I look like my Grandma Victoria. Or my brother.

Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Smile. and laugh.

Can you whistle?
yes i caan! =)

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoo?
my ears will do fine....

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
Side, but I move around.

What gets in your way of your sleeping?
Bright lights, loud noises or weird creepy noises....

Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
mommys.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yeesums.

What did you do today?
Hmm. I went out to dinner.

Thats how exciting my life is.

What do you smell like?
I have no idea.

What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Nothing.

School is next month.

fun fun.

Who did you last hug?
Mommmy

Do you think too much or too little?
too MUCH.

Do you smile a lot?
(:

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Torrid

Who was your last missed call on your cell phone?
Grandma

Have you ridden in someone else's car today?
My moms.

Who were the last three people to text you?
I have no clue.

Are you a cuddler?
Hmm.

yeah.

When's the next time you will see the person you like?
Psh. I'd like to know the answer to that question too.

Are you waiting for something?
We're all waiting for someone.

Are you a jealous person?
No. Not really.

What was the last book you read?
Beauty - Robin Mckinley

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Michael?
Noope.

He's my best male fraaand.
=)

How's the weather today?
Warm

Is it spring break?
SUMMMER '08!

What is the best thing about your current job?
That I don't have one =p.

What were you doing at 11:59 PM Friday night?
Computer. Chatting it up with people.

Who is your favorite person to have a serious conversation with?
Hmm.
I have lots.
Probably close friends.

What time did you get up today?
hahahaha. No clue.

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
I think everybody has at least once.

Have you been heartbroken?
Mmhmm.
Many times

[[3]]
Are you dating the last boy you talked to?
nope. We're just friends.

When is the last time you took a nap?
Today.

What are you listening to right now?
The Teevee.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Daddy.

What was on your mind most today?
A certain friend I miss horribly.

Something that happened today that made you angry?
Liar liar liars .

Are you happier when you're single or in a relationship?
who knows? hm.. i'll let you know next time I get into a relationship.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Hide, I write to myself now.

Do you wear makeup?
not really, the occasional lipgloss.

Are you missing someone?
terribly.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
depends.

What instant messaging service do you use?
msn.

Would you date/hook up with your brother's best friend?
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAAH.

siccck.

What color is your hair?
Light brown.

Who was the last person you hugged?
madre

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
padre

What are you doing tonight?
Nothing.

What did you do yesterday?
moped around.

Are you happy right now?
fairly

Is your phone beside you?
Yeah

Are you cold?
Nah, I feel at room temp

First thing you do when you wake up?
lie there, think. pull out the latest book I'm reading. or write.

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
a while. depends if I'm tired or not.
I have a lot of things in my mind

What do your friends call you?
Kat, Kitty, Kitty-Kat, Kit-kat.

What is your pet's name?
Schnitzel.

Do you have any siblings? Do you get along?
I wish I could say yes to the second part of that question.

Do you cry a lot?
not A LOT, but easily

Would you prefer to date a celebrity?
it'd be kind of cool, for a while. but no thanks.

Are you good at keeping secrets?
Yes.

Do you participate in gym class?
HAH

What are you doing tomorow?
No idea.

First person under 'F' on your cell phone?
Have no one under F

What's the most interesting thing that happened to you today?
Nothing.

What would you do if your last crush came up to you and apologized for something they did?
haha.. I'd like that explanation

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Never

Have you ever flirted with a friends crush?
No

Last movie you watched?
Hairspray

Has anyone ever sang to you?
Mmmmm

Has anyone ever given you roses?
No.

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Hahah, with GOD, anything!

First person to text today?
Nobody

What is your favorite color?
Spring Green and Sky Blue

What color are your eyes?
Dark Green.

Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
my mom, last night

Do you like your parents?
I do.

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
BOTH (:

How long does it take you to shower?
ages

[[4]]

What is your favorite song? That's too hard.

What do you think of the name Courtney? Love
What is your middle name? Victoria.

How many years until you turn 21? 7
Do you have a wild side? Haha. yeah.

Ever gone boating all day? I've never been boating
What is your favorite thing about going to your grandmas house? smells nice.

Is your schools mascot Orioles? Vikings.

Have you ever tripped up stairs? all the time
Do you think the snow is awesome? YES (:
Do you like eggs? Yes
Who are your heroes? certain people. God.

Do you like dancing in the rain? Haven't done so lately
How old are your siblings? 21.

Do you like nascar? Hah. Nope.

Do you know who Rodney Atkins is? No..
Are you tall? yeah
When is the last time you wore a dress? No clue.

What is the last alcoholic beverage you've had? no.

When are you going to grow up? i already started.

Do you know someone that smiles ALL the time? Yeah
Who is the hottest person alive? mmmm, gosh
How long till your birthday? a long way off.

Are you ready for summer? it IS summer.. and I'm ready.
:)
Last person you yelled at? Eh, no one really
When are you going on vacation? Oh yeah! I'm going nowhere!! YAAY!
What are you looking forward to? summer.

Do you like the sun or do you like snow better? Both, at the same time
Don't you love dancing in the rain? wasn't this asked?
Have you had a good cry lately? Yeah
Don't you love pancakes? Yum
What is your dream car? a volvo
When was your golden birthday? well, what is a golden birthday
Is there anything else that happens on your birthday? nope.

Have you ever watched One Tree Hill? nope
Quick name a country singer... billy ray.

Are you related to anyone named Blake? Nada
Do you know the muffin man? yeah. he lives next door to the cupcake man.

Who is in your display pic? me myself and i.

Do you watch tv a lot? not a lot.

Ever had fruit pizza? no
Do you know anyone named Caleb? mmhmm
Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Dad
Ever called someone fat who was really skinny? no..

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When was the last time you talked to your number one? Friday.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J, S, D, or A? Nope
Do you prefer warm or cold weather? Warm
How much money do you have on you? nada.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be? yeah. It's annoying.

Where will you be in an hour? Who knows.

What were you doing at twelve am? Talking to james on facebook
Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? nope
Where did you last eat? Don Raphels
Will you ever kiss the last person you kissed again? never kissed anyone.

Where are you right now? My room
What are you wearing? clothing.

What is the last reason you cried? You'd like to know that wouldn't you?
Where is your mobile phone? beside me
Who are you texting right now? no one
What was the worst mistake of your life? Trusting the wrong people.

What are you currently listening to? Always - Saliva
What time did you go to sleep last night? I didn't sleep last night.

What or who woke you up today? I was already awake
Do you secretly like anyone? Yeah, just like everyone else.

When was the last time someone yelled at you? I don't remember
Have you ever been given an engagement ring? I am only 14
Have you done anything you regret in two oh oh eight so far? No. Cause at one point it was exactly what I wanted. And it made me open my eyes a little wider.

What are you currently reading? This survey.

Who was the last person to make you laugh? Michael
Anything annoying you right now? My Cat
Are there any emotions you're trying to avoid right now? Anger, Sadness.

Do people make fun about your nationality?
Things you did today? The day has just started
Is the person you like older or younger than you? Older.

Did you have a dream last night? When I sleep I always have dreams.

Do you own a polo shirt? Yes.

Did you know that peeling a wrapper off of a bottle means you're sexually frustrated? no I didn't know that. Thats odd.

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26 May 2008 @ 11:59 pm

We are the shaaken, we are the monsters....

La La!
So it's been forever since I last wrote.
A lot of shit has happened.
But that was before.
Things are finally better =).
MIDDLE SCHOOLS ALMOST OVER!!!!
Thank God! Hell is almost over.
Only 5 more days to go.
=).
I won't miss anything about CMS.
Except Mr. Bordeaux, he was the best teacher I have ever had.
I'll miss Mr. Williams too.
But I feel like highschool will be much much better.
I'll be with more kids who are mature.
Which is good.
=).
I HAVE A CAMERA!
Yeees. Finally.
Its a Canon too.
soo. yeah.
This is actually all thats been on my mind.
Love
Kat.

♥

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24 April 2008 @ 03:28 am

I fell out of Heaven to be with you in Hell...

So I lied.
I didn't open up completely about my true feelings. Baah.
It's not easy for me to just break down when I want to or when I tell myself to.
and you know, no one at school honestly gives a fuck what happens to me.
Another thing I realized today is that people are really dumb. Well, I always knew that. But today I realized why again.
So Brandi was the one who left me to go be with Melanie at lunch Friday.
Leaving me all alone at the lunch table.
blah.
anyway, she sat by me in SSP today.
And I told her what happened and she said Jessica already told her and she felt really bad,
Okay. I do like Brandi, she's a nice girl.
But she's rather dumb sometimes.
and I mean, I would have saved me a lot of pain and suffering if Brandi would have just said "I'm so sorry Katharyn!"
But I did not recieve an apology
And I mean Brandi barely talks to me all on her own.
I usually have to start everything with her.
But its fine.
She can do what she wants.
I'm done doing everything.
Jessica and Sarah.
blah.
They make me so mad sometimes.
like when Sarah's mom was telling Sarah things Sarah had no right to know at all.
And Sarah would tell Jess and then wouldn't tell us.
and on top of it all Sarah has a big mouth.
And you know, Jess isn't that great either.
Jess and Sarah saw me today in the hallway.
Did they even bother to say "Hello" to me?
To there supposed "Good friend"?
Nope.
They only do what they want when they feel like it,
Well I feel like never talking to them again.
Its kind of like this quote:
Oh, look who's ~~decided~~ to be my friend today.
Coleman.
Ah yes.
Coleman.
I like his name.
Hence why I repeat it frequently.
Coleman, Coleman, Coleman.
Okay, I'm done doing that,
Well today was a very interesting day with Stappy boy.
He said hello to me first thing in the morning.
and then again in SSP.
And yes, that is a shocker.
Because usually I'm the one who always has to initiate any conversation with him.
But it did make me very happy. =) ♥
I'm trying to get him to talk to me first.
I want him to miss me.
But in reality that probably won't happen.
You know, basically the only reason why I keep going to school is because of him.
Because I have a tiny bit of hope that maybe, just maybe, something good will happen again.
Like him telling me its okay to talk to him about how I really feel.
Which is what i need.
To be open.
And him.
In SSP today it was hilarious.
We did this skit thing and Cole was in it and Piedmont and Casey and Tia.
It was one of those classes where you just had to be there to fully understand the hilarousness,
But my favorite part was when Tia was playing her part.
Coleman told her to take his hand and she looked at him funny and slowly took it.
Then she let go and he did it again and she didn't do anything.
Then he got closer to her.
It was just really funny.
you really had to be there to understand.
My brother woke me up just to tell me he loved me today.
That made me feel really good.
Usually he doesn't do stuff like that.
Gee.
Today has really been full of interesting things.
But in truth, I do need to talk to somebody.
because I'm just getting tired of everything.
Buut i'm physically tired too.
So i'm going to bed now.
♥

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21 April 2008 @ 11:57 am

I'm on the outside looking in.

You know what.
tomorrow, it's all coming out.
Everything is coming out.
Everything I feel.
Down to the last tear.
And I mean it this time.
Because all i'm doing to myself is ~~killing~~ myself slowly.
So so slowly, by holding it all in.
No anymore.
I can't do it anymore.
So now let's just see.'
Let's just see how everybody handles the truth.
♥

Current Location: My room.

Current Mood:

depressed

Current Music: Orgy - Blue Monday

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23 March 2008 @ 11:29 am

Boredness,,,

You Are a Strawberry

You are friendly, outgoing, and well liked by many people.

You are popular, but there's nothing you ordinary or average about you.

You a very interesting person, and you have many facets to your personality.

Sometimes you feel very conflicted. Your different sides of your personality pull at you.

You are a very sensual and passionate person. You are fiery... you can't help it.

In general, you keep your passionate side under wraps. You are only wild in private.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

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